Vielleicht sollte ich mir angewöhnen auf Deutsch zu schreiben. Ich lebe ja nun immerhin schon fast zwei Jahre wieder in diesem Land.
Ich werde mein Bestes tun und versuchen, meine Gedanken von nun an in meiner so genannten Muttersprache auszudrücken - auch wenn mir dies viel schwerer fällt als im "gemütlichen" Englischen.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Betty.
For those of you who are my friends on Facebook this is no news: I recently watched all four Seasons of "Ugly Betty". First I thought it was just entertaining and fun to watch. But the more I watched, the more meaning I saw beneath the surface.
I can't say too much at this point because André hasn't watched all episodes yet, but just a little bit:
I was more than impressed to see a girl who so obviously doesn't fit into the world that surrounds her at work is so strong and brave to stand up against comments and her co-workers' behaviour.
I envy her this bravery. I wish I could be like that, not minding what others think about me, just doing what I want (which is in Betty's case, mostly the right thing). But, alas, I can't be like that.
I can't say too much at this point because André hasn't watched all episodes yet, but just a little bit:
I was more than impressed to see a girl who so obviously doesn't fit into the world that surrounds her at work is so strong and brave to stand up against comments and her co-workers' behaviour.
I envy her this bravery. I wish I could be like that, not minding what others think about me, just doing what I want (which is in Betty's case, mostly the right thing). But, alas, I can't be like that.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
A new beginning
Oh, wow. It's been a long time since I last posted something on here. In fact, it's been so long that I decided to delete my previous posts. They have nothing to do with me or my life anymore. So many things have changed. Like, I can't think of anything that's NOT changed since I last posted in December 2009.
Short version: I did an internship at a movie company which sucked, an affair that sucked even more, moved to Berlin for a supposedly good job opportunity, quit that after two months, started a new job which wasn't much better (just paid way worse), had another bad affair, was sick for two months and had two surgeries during that time, lost my job and now live without money.
Now, that was the bad parts. Now the good part, the one thing that rules out all the bad: I met the most wonderful, loving man in the entire world - my soon to be husband André. The great thing is, he is just as off-the-norm as I am, so he really gets me.
All my life, I had to play a role, I had to be someone else. But with him, I can really be me. Believe me, that was REALLY tough in the beginning, I didn't even know who "me" was. But I think after we've known each other for amost exactly a year and been together for four months, I'm getting better at it, I'm getting to know myself.
My man loves me for who I am. And even when I'm being insane, bitchy, nerdy, or one of the million other things I sometimes am, he tries to understand me.
I feel like I don't deserve him sometimes. I can only pray that one day I'll be good enough for him. No matter what it takes, I'll do it.
Short version: I did an internship at a movie company which sucked, an affair that sucked even more, moved to Berlin for a supposedly good job opportunity, quit that after two months, started a new job which wasn't much better (just paid way worse), had another bad affair, was sick for two months and had two surgeries during that time, lost my job and now live without money.
Now, that was the bad parts. Now the good part, the one thing that rules out all the bad: I met the most wonderful, loving man in the entire world - my soon to be husband André. The great thing is, he is just as off-the-norm as I am, so he really gets me.
All my life, I had to play a role, I had to be someone else. But with him, I can really be me. Believe me, that was REALLY tough in the beginning, I didn't even know who "me" was. But I think after we've known each other for amost exactly a year and been together for four months, I'm getting better at it, I'm getting to know myself.
My man loves me for who I am. And even when I'm being insane, bitchy, nerdy, or one of the million other things I sometimes am, he tries to understand me.
I feel like I don't deserve him sometimes. I can only pray that one day I'll be good enough for him. No matter what it takes, I'll do it.
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