Oh, wow. It's been a long time since I last posted something on here. In fact, it's been so long that I decided to delete my previous posts. They have nothing to do with me or my life anymore. So many things have changed. Like, I can't think of anything that's NOT changed since I last posted in December 2009.
Short version: I did an internship at a movie company which sucked, an affair that sucked even more, moved to Berlin for a supposedly good job opportunity, quit that after two months, started a new job which wasn't much better (just paid way worse), had another bad affair, was sick for two months and had two surgeries during that time, lost my job and now live without money.
Now, that was the bad parts. Now the good part, the one thing that rules out all the bad: I met the most wonderful, loving man in the entire world - my soon to be husband André. The great thing is, he is just as off-the-norm as I am, so he really gets me.
All my life, I had to play a role, I had to be someone else. But with him, I can really be me. Believe me, that was REALLY tough in the beginning, I didn't even know who "me" was. But I think after we've known each other for amost exactly a year and been together for four months, I'm getting better at it, I'm getting to know myself.
My man loves me for who I am. And even when I'm being insane, bitchy, nerdy, or one of the million other things I sometimes am, he tries to understand me.
I feel like I don't deserve him sometimes. I can only pray that one day I'll be good enough for him. No matter what it takes, I'll do it.
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